Confessions

the only balls you have is two peas and a grain of rice, who the fuck are you again? did i hear a mouse squeak?

 

this from the biggest tosser in oz, Hitting a nerve i see lovely! lol

 

I play music. Which I couldn't give two shit's what you fucking think of that. You come on here and and say "what the fuck do you do" when questioned....how about you grow some fucking balls and provide an answer for something....do you have passions for anything? Or do you just enjoy your failing attempt to taunt people? Who the fuck are you? Why would you bother with this forum....just to insult people? If that's the cause....you are seriously fucking pathetic!

 

And what the fuck do you do exactly besides whine here ?lol moron

 

I Wind turds like you up :D

 

But that's just so unproductive and pathetic. I'm not bothered by you no matter what you think. I am just curious why a grown man sits behind a keyboard and types insults to people just for shits and giggles....what the fuck do you do with your life?....besides that?

 

i got nothing to say to you because you are a cunt of the highest order so might as well abuse you for shit and giggles :D

 

your mistaking me for a keyboard warrior like yourself bollock yoghurt face lol

 

Yeah that's obvious...but why don't you say something to me instead that you think would be useful instead of playing gangster behind a computer desk

 

because i can turd burglar

 

Why don't you say something? That doesn't end in some slur that to me is a waste of you typing a message.

 

stick it in yer ear shitstain!

 

McQ = FuckYou....that sound right to you?

 

What does completing the trial for George mean for him in your opinion as it appears it was your trial?...or have I got that wrong?

 

not for u fucka!

 

IS this a trial too? For everyone here or just select individuals if it is a trial?

 

the Trial

 

What did George finish?

 

I am you and what I see is me...

 

A friend of mine.... who is me, thinks it's fair to call people out on their own bullshit.

I know I appreciate a straight forward, honest approach. Doesn't everyone? Doesn't everyone want to stare at their own reflection? Its not THAT scary, its just you. You know, yourself.... right?

RIGHT?!

No way! It's enough to make me want to be someone else. Anyone else.

So here I am, on a forum, being a friend of mine.... who is me.

 

Thanks for the feedback

 

What I meant by that is that talent was something I defined as something you were born with.

 

no thanks..... your a cunt lol

 

"Danielle, post: 1454, member: 20"]When I was little I told my mom I wanted to be a Singer/Brain Surgeon/Ballerina when I grew up. Looking back I know what I was really saying was that I wanted to be Talented/Successful/Beautiful.
So you wanted what all around you wanted because that was the stimuli provided voluntarily and deliberately by nature and nurture in equal measure.....
A singer: the epitome of talent in my house because you were either born with a pleasing voice or not.
Brain Surgeon: When I asked my mom which job made the most money she told me it was probably a brain surgeon.
Ballerina: The ballerina from "the Nutcracker" was the epitome of ideal beauty to me.
So we look to the media to find all three in one.....or the parts a dirty old man likes...
Now if someone were to ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up I'd tell them, An Artist/Quantum Physicist/Hippie
Looking forward it seems I want to be Talented/Intelligent and In the know/Happy
So being "in the know"=Happiness?
Is knowledge the most important thing?
If not , where does it rank?
If we are going to rank things in there importance ,shouldn't we start with the physical needs?
Ahh! But emotional well being is a very proven need , as it effects the physical well being.soooooo,Where does that leave us...
I dont mean "us "as in what would Aristotle say?I mean US here now , the people living now,dealing now,moving around in the field of energy we call life,NOW!...
The ranking should start with basic needs,the needs should equal the want?
when this is achieved...we consider the effects of emotional well being.


An Artist : I found that I like to paint/draw as well as sing ( I broadened my horizons there )
Quantum Physicist: Intelligent and at the cutting edge of exploration
Hippie: Simple, healthy, happy life.
Exploring all the said areas to see/gauge if you should be happy/knowledgable of them,then you do the sum of"am i happy ","according to what i know"
Reality: I work in retail management.
The "grunt" the front line that all generals are scared of....the place they like to administer judgement on,but seldom visit....they never visit ,because like any soldiers,?(when pushed)you will tell it how it is.....and the generals know how its...they made it that way......why would they want to hear that....
but there is another reason they dont come near.....because any grunt that is good on the frontline"sales" is capable of stealing the empire.....because thats where it matters.....the frontline numbers....IN ANYTHING....control the numbers and you control everything...
And your sitting right there getting training and being paid....the real question is,,,what are you deciding to learn ....the answer.....or the way to emulate........maybe you should learn both?while gossiping and being clever!!!!it is you after all...
I have no time to draw or paint because of the demands I place on myself from work,
Bullshit!!!!!
You do not manage your time because you see no point,and then moan about no point to managing time as you dont have any mainly because your not managing as you are to busy moaning about and finding more reasons to avoid managing your time..

I Do live a simple life but it's not healthy,
Simple ,But Not healthy,cool.

I am happy because I make the best of it, and with lack of time to pursue investigation of my world beyond my daydreams I am not on the cutting edge or in the know at all.
You spend to much time theorising what you would like to do if you had the time while smoking to much....which in turn fucks everything....
Conclusion:
I have not yet grown up!
You are completely correct in this statement,but,it also means you just opened the gate to the secret garden of maturity..
lets see...
im such a wanker huh!
why pick Dale,When I can pick you...?
lets see if the prelim's burn you...?
oh no, you cant , you dont have the time...

Or you could say"fuck you ,you bald prick"
which i would find very funny.

 

I know you weren't referring to me, but what you said is valid and I just wanted to say I'm not here for that. I'm here to find out more about myself and if I can contribute to something genuinely positive and not some romantic bullshit. So drill me on anything I say please!

 

I wasn't even talking about you, get over yourself lol. Delusions of grandeur and all that :D

 

Was your voice deemed unpleasant in your household? I know what that feel's like but everyone has different tastes. They used to ask the Stones when they'd get a real singer in the 60's. I'm pretty sure I read somewhere that John Lydon said the funniest summary of his voice he got was someone telling him he sounded like a cat being raped. But voice has character and strengths beyond just sounding pretty. It's your voice and everyone's got one. I don't like to think of anyone as the best or most amazing....they just have to mean it.

 

When I was little I told my mom I wanted to be a Singer/Brain Surgeon/Ballerina when I grew up. Looking back I know what I was really saying was that I wanted to be Talented/Successful/Beautiful.

A singer: the epitome of talent in my house because you were either born with a pleasing voice or not.
Brain Surgeon: When I asked my mom which job made the most money she told me it was probably a brain surgeon.
Ballerina: The ballerina from "the Nutcracker" was the epitome of ideal beauty to me.

Now if someone were to ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up I'd tell them, An Artist/Quantum Physicist/Hippie
Looking forward it seems I want to be Talented/Intelligent and In the know/Happy

An Artist : I found that I like to paint/draw as well as sing ( I broadened my horizons there )
Quantum Physicist: Intelligent and at the cutting edge of exploration
Hippie: Simple, healthy, happy life.

Reality: I work in retail management. I have no time to draw or paint because of the demands I place on myself from work, I Do live a simple life but it's not healthy, I am happy because I make the best of it, and with lack of time to pursue investigation of my world beyond my daydreams I am not on the cutting edge or in the know at all.

Conclusion:
I have not yet grown up!

 

I'm not trying to waste anyones time. I'm trying my best. That's all I can do.

 

Again, misperception I should have used and where I have gone wrong with that. I am to blame for my own self-inflicted misfortunes. The most prominent example I can confess regarding misperception is being a musician in a band and wanting to “make it” as so many bands still say today. I was delusional for a long time but was very persistent with that delusion. But the main thing I found out was it was ALL in MY head. And that was the ego problem. And the media helps fuel that ego because you get stuck in thinking you are right and no one is listening to you when it was me who wasn’t listening to anything besides my own bullshit. I thought I was good at something and wanted the same recognition that other ‘famous’ bands had. Nirvana/Oasis etc…But it’s all bull shit. They were themselves. I’m not them. That was their life and it’s fucking pathetic to live in the shadow of others inside your own head. It’s not reality. This is my life experience and it’s flowing the way it is. It took me a very long time to accept myself for the musician I am and I say musician and not in a band because me and my friend create music that we really believe has something and we fucking love doing it. I was horrible when I was 18 and forced one of my dear friends who was an amazing Bass player (still is) who’s really had it fucking rough his whole

life. And I tried to convince him to wear things he wasn’t comfortable with because I thought that would contribute to us being “noticed” or some nonsense. He was/and still is one my best friends and I am fucking ashamed of myself for ever making him feel uncomfortable. It’s so stupid…I hated being told what to wear and here I was trying to tell this guy what to wear! And especially when I looked so ridiculous anyway! It was just my own bullshit I thinking I had to prove myself to people who don’t really exist. I’ll always feel really sad about that because he was the real deal musician wise and true friend. And if I’d just enjoyed that for what it was we might still be playing together today.

My musical partner thought the same way I did until we butted heads (typical male ego bullshit to do with a girl) and had to reshape everything which took years but now I just feel so lucky to be able to play music with people. I try as hard as I can, not to put my expectation on anyone else. I contribute the best I can and enjoy what I do. I don’t need millions of dollars or album sales to appreciate what was the REAL thing that was there the whole time.

It was always there. But I let a fake world get in the way of a beautiful reality. I don’t want to make that mistake again.