When Waves Collide

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  1. Shadowself

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    As some here may or may not know, I have Small Cell Lung Cancer stage 4. It's inoperable and I'm now on my last round as the chemo is starting not to work again. I should in about four more weeks go on immunotherapy called Opdivo. This cancer type at stage 4 is considered treatable but not curable. The life expectancy for this stage is 2 years. I just joined a support group and did a poll of the people there that had SCLC (small cell lung cancer) and one person there is in fact on Opdivo and has hit the three year mark. I'm hopeful I have good results from it too.

    I the meantime as it's again stated it's not curable I had a thought...and So it begins:


    I've been writing for years on several forums of various kinds. Much of what I wrote was of the nature of existence and our DNA that would carry us through this existence. I've got almost a whole library on the subject in fact.

    As one of the first things in my lets say awakening I was directed to DNA and not from some outside source as in videos, articles and such...but my very own guide Artemis. Who indeed just to reiterate is me in essence. Just a much smarter me perhaps from my past in the learning of existing within this universe. Such as we all carry this intelligence within it's often that learning that can be sidelined or even distracted in the meanings. I know personally I've been distracted many times by outside sources that would even send me on a wild goose chase only to come around back to where I started and have to begin again ...from the beginning and it seems to all start with one important thing which I acknowledged...yet to some degree temporarily disregarded as but one function.


    Today in all my illness it was again show to me as a key. Not just any key mind you but one very important Key. Perhaps I need to revisit that key and in the recall of years of my own writing and research I might find an answer to solve my own illness? I thought it's worth a try and Artemis does not suggest lightly of things unless he's serious as to the importance.

    So I'm starting with this and will add to this the various degrees as to its importance.

    What if...it works?

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    The beginning: When Waves Collide



    Alpha.... Electromagnetic Finestructure Constant 'Alpha' And TAU.... τ–θ puzzle ..... together. Not simply Tau....

    My bad for not paying better attention. My focus got pulled away from ALPHA. When I got this part of the code I got two things.."eye of Taurus" and of course the other was "golden ratio".


    Because there's a whole lot more to this apparent puzzle. This was only one very small part.

    It is in essence the "Beginning"....the three wavy lines as the PRIMER ...3 n's equal water and there are three N's in the word Beginning....

    Flow action.....be the water.....It can flow or it can crash.... What happen when two waves meet?

    They "collide".....

    or

    A transverse wave moves energy by passing it through points of matter. The crest is the highest point of a transverse wave, and the trough is the lowest point. The effect of two waves colliding depends on whether the waves amplify or cancel each other. If the crest of one wave collides with the trough of another, the energy pulling in two directions will cancel the effects of both. If the crest of a wave collides with the crest of another, the energy will be amplified. The same thing happens if two troughs collide.

    ~ And ~

    When two systems ... enter into temporary physical interaction ... and when after a time of mutual influence the systems separate again, then they can no longer be described in the same way as before viz. by endowing each of them with a representative of its own. You would not call that one but rather the characteristic trait of quantum mechanics, the one that enforces its entire departure from classical lines of thought. By the interaction the two representatives [the quantum states] have become entangled.

    An example of entanglement occurs when subatomic particles decay into other particles. When pairs of particles are generated by the decay of other particles, naturally or through induced collision, these pairs may be termed “entangled”, in that such pairs often necessarily have linked and opposite qualities such as spin or charge.

    ~And~

    HOW WATER SHAPES DNA

    Water molecules surround the genetic material DNA in a very specific way. Scientists at the Helmholtz-Zentrum Dresden-Rossendorf (HZDR) have discovered that, on the one hand, the texture of this hydration shell depends on the water content and, on the other hand, actually influences the structure of the genetic substance itself. These findings are not only important in understanding the biological function of DNA; they could also be used for the construction of new DNA-based materials


    The DNA’s double helix never occurs in isolation; instead, its entire surface is always covered by water molecules which attach themselves with the help of hydrogen bonds. But the DNA does not bind all molecules the same way.

    "DNA is, thus, a responsive material," explains Karim Fahmy. "By this, we refer to materials which react dynamically to varying conditions. The double helix structure, the strength of the hydrogen bonds, and even the DNA volume tend to change with higher water contents."

    https://www.astrobio.net/also-in-news/how-water-shapes-dna/

    'It does not come as a complete surprise that the water sheath of the genetic material is also of great relevance to the natural biological function of DNA. Because every biomolecule which is bound to the DNA has to first displace the water sheath. The Dresden scientists have analyzed this process for the peptide indolicidin. This antimicrobial protein is less structured and very flexible. That it still "identifies" the double helix so precisely is due to the fact that highly structured water molecules are released when it coalesces with the genetic material. The water sheath's restructuring, which is actually an energetic advantage, increases the binding of the active agent'.


    ~ Then Thus ~

    Quantum Entanglement Holds DNA Together

    There was a time, not so long ago, when biologists swore black and blue that quantum mechanics could play no role in the hot, wet systems of life.

    Now a group of physicists say that the weird laws of quantum mechanics may be more important for life than biologists could ever have imagined. Their new idea is that DNA is held together by quantum entanglement.

    That’s worth picking apart in more detail. Entanglement is the weird quantum process in which a single wavefunction describes two separate objects. When this happens, these objects effectively share the same existence, no matter how far apart they might be.

    The question that Elisabeth Rieper at the National University of Singapore and a couple of buddies have asked is what role might entanglement play in DNA. To find out, they’ve constructed a simplified theoretical model of DNA in which each nucleotide consists of a cloud of electrons around a central positive nucleus. This negative cloud can move relative to the nucleus, creating a dipole. And the movement of the cloud back and forth is a harmonic oscillator.

    We consider it more accurate to describe the processing
    of genetic information by quantum channels, as the interactions
    between molecules are determined by laws of
    quantum mechanics.


    https://arxiv.org/pdf/1006.4053.pdf

    https://www.technologyreview.com/s/419590/quantum-entanglement-holds-dna-together-say-physicists/

    So where is the wave?
    Repeat it:
    When two systems ... enter into temporary physical interaction ... and when after a time of mutual influence the systems separate again, then they can no longer be described in the same way as before viz. by endowing each of them with a representative of its own. You would not call that one but rather the characteristic trait of quantum mechanics, the one that enforces its entire departure from classical lines of thought. By the interaction the two representatives [the quantum states] have become entangled.

    An example of entanglement occurs when subatomic particles decay into other particles.

    When pairs of particles are generated by the decay of other particles, naturally or through induced collision, these pairs may be termed “entangled”, in that such pairs often necessarily have linked and opposite qualities such as spin or charge.

    ~

    What happens to these oscillations, or phonons as physicists call them, when the base pairs are stacked in a double helix.

    Phonons are quantum objects, meaning they can exist in a superposition of states and become entangled, just like other quantum objects.

    ~


    Phonons have a wavelength which is similar in size to a DNA helix and this allows standing waves to form, a phenomenon known as phonon trapping. When this happens, the phonons cannot easily escape. A similar kind of phonon trapping is known to cause problems in silicon structures of the same size.

    That would be of little significance if it had no overall effect on the helix. But the model developed by Rieper and co suggests that the effect is profound.

    ~

    The de Broglie–Bohm theory expresses in an explicit manner the fundamental non-locality of quantum physics. The velocity of any one particle depends on the value of the wavefunction, which depends on the whole configuration of the universe.

    This theory is deterministic. Most (but not all) relativistic variants require a preferred frame. Variants which include spin and curved spaces are known. It can be modified to include quantum field theory.

    People such as Josephson, Stapp, Penrose and others have suggested changes in quantum theory which allow for the possibility of "intent" or the like to bias quantum outcomes, but that all these authors operate using the Copenhagen picture in which there really is a "collapse" of the wavefunction.

    in Bohmian mechanics with the mental aspect of the universe, generally: the particles are "matter," "mind" the pilot-wave.

    That might be uninteresting except for the next step:the "mental" aspect of the universe can be upgraded to life and consciousness by self-organization. This happens when a physical system uses its own nonlocality in its organization. In this case a feedback loop is created, as follows: the system configures itself so as to set up its own Bohmian pilot wave, which in turn directly affects its physical configuration which then affects its nonlocal pilot wave which affects the configuration, etc...

    Normally in quantum mechanics this "back-action" is not taken into account. The wave guides the particles but the back-action of the particle onto the wave is not systematically calculated - of course, the back-reaction is physically real: the movement of the particle determines the initial conditions of the next round of calculation. But there is no systematic way to characterize such feedback. One reason that this works in practice is that for systems that are not self organizing the back-action may not exert any systematic effect. This is an interesting way to utilize nonlocality.


    Geometry acts on Matter/Energy telling it how to move,
    while Matter/Energy has a reciprocal Back-Reaction on Geometry telling it how to bend.


    Quantum wave functions describe the distributions of electrons in atoms, molecules, and solids. There are many electrons in a DNA molecule and many wave functions are necessary to describe them all...



    ~

    Since the early days of quantum physics, its influence on biology has always been present in a reductionist sense: quantum physics and electrodynamics shape all molecules and thus determine molecular recognition, the workings of proteins, and DNA. Also van der Waals forces, discrete molecular orbitals, and the stability of matter: all this is quantum physics and a natural basis for life and everything we see.



    https://www.ted.com/talks/jim_al_kh...fe_s_biggest_questions/transcript?language=en

    Pondering still....What's next....

    A calculation of the energy levels for the DNA base units A-T and G-C, along with the forms G-T, G-C excited and G-C anion, was made. The lifetime of the proton on each of the levels and tunnelling time through the barrier at each level was then determined. Finally, the distribution and tunnelling of the protons on the levels for various densities of radiation was considered. Graphs were plotted which showed that considerable tunnelling could take place for radiation in resonance with the levels.


    Quantum Biology: Proton Tunneling, Quantum Entanglement, DNA, Microevolution & Mutations



    And so it has begun...



     
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    'Quantum jitters' may drive DNA mutations {Duke University Research}



    Duke University researchers have discovered “quantum jitters,” in which the basic building blocks of DNA and RNA can temporarily change shapes, fooling the cell's machinery into making a mismatched base pair. This shape-shifting of bases is exceedingly rare and only flickers into existence for a thousandth of a second. But these jitters occur with the same frequency as DNA copying mistakes, a hint that this might be the basis of the genetic mutations that drive evolution and diseases like cancer.

    https://phys.org/news/2015-03-quantum-jitters-basis-evolution-cancer.html

    This tiny movement, or "quantum jitter," takes such an enormous amount of energy that bases are successful at accomplishing the feat only once out of every 10,000 or so attempts. Even then, they can only hold their new shape for a very short period of time—50 to 200 microseconds—before the hydrogens pop back into their original position.

    Because DNA shape-shifting involves atomic-level movements in larger molecules, it has been impossible to detect by conventional methods. Therefore, Al-Hashimi's team decided to use a sophisticated technique called NMR relaxation dispersion, which he likens to "MRI on steroids," to visualize these fleeting, nearly invisible changes.

    https://phys.org/news/2015-03-quantum-jitters-basis-evolution-cancer.html#jCp


    The researchers looked back at previous biological studies and found that these rare alternative states appeared in the DNA about as often as the polymerase machinery's copying errors.

    "This is a remarkable study that illuminates a fundamental mechanism responsible for the random mutations that drive evolution and contribute to cancer," said Bert Vogelstein, M.D., a cancer researcher at Johns Hopkins University School of Medicine who was not involved in this research.

    Kimsey said that a better understanding of how these jitters arise could help in the development of new treatments to fight cancer cells and viruses, for example, forcing them to mutate at a quicker rate so they eventually stop functioning.

    "We know that certain carcinogens like 5-bromouridine can make these jitters occur more frequently, said Kimsey, who is lead author of the study. "Therefore, we can use this knowledge to tailor drugs that more rapidly induce cancer cells or viruses to make so many mistakes that they mutate uncontrollably and eventually die."
     
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    Because DNA shape-shifting involves atomic-level movements in larger molecules, it has been impossible to detect by conventional methods. Therefore, Al-Hashimi's team decided to use a sophisticated technique called NMR relaxation dispersion, which he likens to "MRI on steroids," to visualize these fleeting, nearly invisible changes.

    It just so happened for me in the early morning last Monday, I was indeed inside an MRI tube. It is loud and vibrates. It's imaging done with sound.

    As I was sitting inside this tube with my eyes closed the various sounds were applied.

    But then I noticed a different view of what what happening.

    Something we often refer to as
    Vibration
    .

    Now I've heard over the years every new age notation to vibration....raise your vibration etc etc....but yesterday it was different.

    vibrations were radiating off my brain for an image.

    Yes we are all vibrating at a specific resonance....but what if...There were actually a way as said above:


    As Kimsey said that a better understanding of how these jitters arise could help in the development of new treatments to fight cancer cells and viruses, for example, forcing them to mutate at a quicker rate so they eventually stop functioning.

    That:

    We know that certain carcinogens like 5-bromouridine can make these jitters occur more frequently, said Kimsey, who is lead author of the study. "Therefore, we can use this knowledge to tailor drugs that more rapidly induce cancer cells or viruses to make so many mistakes that they mutate uncontrollably and eventually die."


    I'm not sure where they are going with that in terms of drugs to induce....but what if such a vibration/jitter occurs that it does indeed cause the cancer to make so many mistakes that it mutates uncontrollably and dies?

    And where exactly would you find such a "jitter/vibration" devise to do that? Would it require a whole body application if it existed? Or perhaps direct targeting? Is that an even reasonable idea?

    Well...YES!

    Targeted treatment of cancer with radiofrequency electromagnetic fields amplitude-modulated at tumor-specific frequencies

    Abstract
    In the past century, there have been many attempts to treat cancer with low levels of electric and magnetic fields. We have developed noninvasive biofeedback examination devices and techniques and discovered that patients with the same tumor type exhibit biofeedback responses to the same, precise frequencies. Intrabuccal administration of 27.12 MHz radiofrequency (RF) electromagnetic fields (EMF), which are amplitude-modulated at tumor-specific frequencies, results in long-term objective responses in patients with cancer and is not associated with any significant adverse effects. Intrabuccal administration allows for therapeutic delivery of very low and safe levels of EMF throughout the body as exemplified by responses observed in the femur, liver, adrenal glands, and lungs. In vitro studies have demonstrated that tumor-specific frequencies identified in patients with various forms of cancer are capable of blocking the growth of tumor cells in a tissue- and tumor-specific fashion. Current experimental evidence suggests that tumor-specific modulation frequencies regulate the expression of genes involved in migration and invasion and disrupt the mitotic spindle. This novel targeted treatment approach is emerging as an appealing therapeutic option for patients with advanced cancer given its excellent tolerability. Dissection of the molecular mechanisms accounting for the anti-cancer effects of tumor-specific modulation frequencies is likely to lead to the discovery of novel pathways in cancer.


    https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3845545/

    But that's not all....

    sound ~ Frequency ~ Vibration ~ Harmonic

    Here is where I about fell over today....



    What did he say?

    Did he say the 11 Harmonic series frequency is what worked to shatter the cancer?



    To hear that start at 8:00 to hear the magic formula frequency in the video...

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    The 11th Harmonic....

    Allow me to show you the note associated with the 11 harmonic series:


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    That would be F#

    A prominent note within the 9 factor grid in the 432 series...that contains all the geometric shapes within the factor 9 grid!


    They did this experiment at 440 hz....What if they did it at 432....

    11th Harmonic Effect ~ Rife technology


    Factor 9 Grid explained here:



    Whoa Says I....





     
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  5. Shadowself

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    Just checking in. Been feeling better and one good plus...I'm not wheezing now. I can take a deep breath and no noise in my lungs! I can take a deep breath of air and actually feel the good effects of oxygen! It's been a while since I've done that.

    I'm not even doing the two inhalers I have for breathing!

    Right lung still hurts but even with the deep breath it is not as bad as it was. Perhaps this stuff is working? I sincerely hope so after all the crap it puts me through.

    This last round of chemo effected the inside of my mouth and my tongue feels all broken out and cut up. They gave me a concoction they call "Magic Mouthwash"....I kid you not! That's what it says on the bottle. It has several things in it to heal the mouth while numbing it with lidocaine. It's gross as hell...but it works...(should I say it?)...Like Magic! LOL smmileee

    But I'm really stoked about the breathing! It's been awhile since I've been able to take a deep breath!

    Think I'll take another hit of sweet fresh air!



    It's quite appropriate today as my condition of breathing is getting better. Something I've not had for 8 months counting! In those eight months I've seriously been laboring for breath and simple tasks like making dinner or washing dishes gets me out of breath. I usually get dizzy and have to sit down.

    Oh boy....that means i have to wash dishes!
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    I'm really quite stoked about breathing today. Something we mostly take for granted.

    Today I celebrate a road marker on the path....

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    Been doing some research and then thought of something...

    I noticed that this guy:



    Who was in the TED video where it blistered and shattered the cancer cells...appears to have flatly failed.



    Raising a sum total of $3523.00 to support his research and lab.

    That to me is very strange...given the results from the experiments...which clearly show it shattering the cancer cells.

    So the other day I did a sort of experiment myself. I'm wondering if that helped in my being able to breathe better?

    What I did was play two frequencies at the same time. I have no idea if they are in the 11th harmonic...but I tried it anyhow...here is what I did. I used my headphones and played the two videos at the same time. The videos were these:





    I only did it one time then promptly forgot about it until today. It occurred to me that perhaps that may have had something to do with new found ability to breathe without wheezing. I just don't know. So I tried it again today and will try it a few more times throughout the day. We'll see.

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    I noted today also that there are 7 mutations in the DNA that are behind the specific cancer I have.

    As I had written in the first post that Water Shapes DNA and Quantum Entanglement Holds DNA Together. The water sheath's restructuring, which is actually an energetic advantage, increases the binding of the active agent'. It still "identifies" the double helix so precisely due to the fact that highly structured water molecules are released when it coalesces with the genetic material.

    So naturally as the whole body is comprised of water it may very well through listening to the frequency cause an effect where it somewhat creates a wave function of sorts on the DNA. While not directly applied to the area of the tumor...it may have the same effect as quantum entanglement right? It does not seem impossible particularly if the specific frequency is thought to effect that specific type of cancer cells. If there is a wave of particles that would be affected by the frequency there must be a back reaction as well...causing...???

    I did some research on that today and will share that later but it appears that certain kinds of cancer have their own frequency as well. This is from another source and not the guy with the failed fundraiser for a lab. It's actually been studied and gotten some approval from the FDA if you can believe that.

    So the FDA and medical community know that not only does certain kinds of cancer have a specific frequency...they also know it responds favorably to that frequency in controlling the spreading of the disease within the body host.

    Yet...they do not use it in any regular therapy. curious right?

    Still working on this...just sharing for now.

    Oh I should add that when I listened to the two frequencies today that I just posted at the same time I did notice the spot in my back where the primary tumor in my lung resides causes the most pain....the frequencies caused it to activate not in pain but it caused a distinct itching/tingling sensation. Will report back any changed while doing this experiment as I go along as well.


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    Reporting in:

    Well I slept until 10 AM this morning. That never happens! I slept through one dose of meds. That would be my pain meds.

    I did those two frequencies before I went to sleep last night. when doing it I was laying down and this time I noticed a sensation in my chest area of my lungs. Again a slight tingling. When it was done I took off my headphones and fell straight off to sleep at 1AM until now...10 AM. I haven't been able to sleep like that since this started.

    Woke up to slight pain as heck..my pain meds have worn off. But not too bad.

    I'm going to do this twice again today to see how this goes. I do think this contributed to my sleep. Again something I've not done in at least almost 9 months now.

    Just to let you know where I got these...it's from here:

    http://www.rifetherapies.com/rife-frequencies/

    Just click on anything and it will give you the video with the frequency.

    I chose the two together because that one guy not related to this site said it took two frequencies to kill the cancer cells. I also chose these two because they sounded farther apart in frequency...one high one low. Again I have no idea the harmonic frequency of the two but guessed they were far enough apart to perhaps work like the 11 harmonic frequency did.

    I know it must be doing something because everytime I listen to the two sounds together I feel something going on in my chest area.

    So I'm doing it as I write this and this time I'm doubling the time. Lets see what effect that has...

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    Reporting in.

    Yesterday I did the frequencies in the morning. But not in the evening. I'll tell you why...

    After doing the frequencies I made the tea which is about ready for the second heating up/simmering before screening through a sieve and ready for consumption.

    I started to get really tired...and remained tired the whole day. Napping on and off mostly. Then it hit me...

    I started to get severe pain in my liver....again. I think this is from the chemo which had the same effect the last two rounds I've had of this chemo.....being told by the doctor the pain was most likely the encapsulation of the tumors and the tearing from the shrinking. Probably a good thing...but the damned pain was most certainly not!

    I had a hard time yesterday even sitting up...so I spent most of the day and evening into the early morning (3:45 AM was the last time I saw the clock) in severe pain and tried to rest..then at 3:45 took one of my pain medications and the ativan for some nausea and relaxation from the severe pain so I could get some real rest. I promptly fell asleep and slept until around 7:45 this morning.

    Most of the liver pain is gone now...and just a slight headache....which is there even though I'm taking the pain medication. They have offered me a higher dose of pain meds but for now I'm not going for it. The thought did occur to me yesterday with the severe pain in my liver area...but it has mostly subsided now.

    I'm being cautious about doing too much at a time with the frequency and the chemo together as I don't want the dead cancer cells to overload into my bloodstream. That is the thing I documented yesterday called Tumor lysis syndrome

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tumor_lysis_syndrome

    While they do monitor my blood for this kind of thing....I still want to be cautious and not do too much at one time.

    I will do the frequencies a little later today after I feel a bit better. I just don't want to overdo it as I sincerely think it's working...imagine that!

    Have a great day guys!
     
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  9. Shadowself

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    Good Afternoon!

    It's been awhile because:

    I've had a really rough time this last round of chemo. Let me explain....I wrote this for my family members on facebook that have been after me to get out and visit as my son bought a new home and as yet I've not been able to get there.....This was on the 12th of Sept.


    So I've been somewhat out of it and until the last few days I'm starting to feel human again. I wrote this a few days later:


    I went to the cardiologist yesterday and all is well with the EKG. Basically aside from the fact that I did have a heart attack and do have a bad case of cancer....I'm pretty strong otherwise I would probably not have survived that last round. That is the truth! That was really bad. I'm absolutely positive they overdosed me with the chemo meds as I was seriously in the early stages of shock. I probably should have gone to the ER but I didn't and all the same survived it which tells me I may very well be able to beat this if there is a cure out there to be had.

    So basically what happened showed me I can beat this and I am strong enough to do just that!

    Now I think I mentioned that my granddaughter is getting her PHD and works in the area of cancer research. I just found this article and am going to ask her if she knows a way I can get on some kind of list for this kind of treatment when and if it's available to apply to human subjects:

    Today as the hurricane shuffle is now pretty much over in my area I'm finally going to see my son's new home. Also a new grandson is coming on the 28th so I have that to look forward to and pretty much a month that started out like crap is ending well.

    In the smack middle of that last round (sept 8th) of chemo I turned 65 and at the beginning of this year (10 months after heart attacks and cancer diagnosis) I was not too sure I would actually make 65! Well I did and am looking forward to 66!

    I also got invited to my last works 20th anniversary party which was pretty nice that they invited me to come and partake.....another thing to look forward to!

    Cheers All and here's to fighting the the fight of my life...My plan is to win this one! cuppa
     
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    This had been a week of Doctor's appointments....another one today.

    But today I found out:

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    I swear it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders when I got that news.

    Shortly after I found out I promptly fell asleep and slept like I have not slept in almost a year!

    I hope to never have to do chemo again! While I know it did some good for me...it also was slowly killing me. I don't know any other way to say it. It was zapping the life out of me. I'm so grateful it's over now. That has been one of the hardest things I've been through. I swear that to be true.

    All the tears I've been holding in have suddenly come flooding out. Tears of relief now but internally they were built of out of sheer fear and dread each time I had to do it.

    God am I grateful it's over now.
     
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