Confessions

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We used to read Carlos Castanada and eat mushrooms!

 

Don't feel bad, I read 'The Secret' once. Xp

 

I have a most embarrassing confession to make. Cryeeee
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I read David Wilcock's book.

 

well they had to take control
Damned Straight!
wanst going for the bull shit lol

 

As far as that list is concerned, I for one can be seen to display a number of those characteristics. Number #11 - as just one example - strikes me as good policy.

Note, there is a vast expanse between 'intolerant' and 'belligerent'; should one tolerate a lack of respect?

 

Do I have to have a pair?

 

some one claims i tried to hack them. but if I did they would not be around to make their claims - Paradox

 

Houdunnit has become a chicken, jumping
Through the hoops of cotton bunting
an animal, not one for hunting,
but one for stew pot?

Man alive, and here I sit
and type and try to rhyme this sh*t
because I am a silly git....
Oh look, membership I got!

 

For sake of argument, is there any reason that I should continue with my participation, given the (previous) discourse inherent? ^_~

Sorry, just poking the tiger. Carry on. ^_^

 

chikinJumping

 

I'm really not a fan of kids,... and I'm even less a fan of kids who are having kids. Most 'young adults' I encounter are insufficiently mature, economically stable, intelligent, etc., and the wanton degree to which they leisurely pop out their own is downright disgusting IMO.

Everywhere I've lived and/or go, I find myself working with barely/early 20-somethings who are just so tickled that 'they' got pregnant (again, often) and can't wait to subject the world to the consequences of their recent activity, esp. the ones who do so willy nilly (no pun intended) in an equally terse or insubstantial relationship.

Would that more people make like at a discount grocery and bag their own,....

 

Oh dear,....

When I was 13 I stole $20 from my older brother, first by sequestering it in his room for a week (hanging out of a book that was strewn open) and then - confident that he hadn't noticed it missing or searched for it (cuz he would've found it) - I used it to buy comic books (Spawn #'s 12 &13 to be precise).

I have a tendency to make over-the-top promises to people when I take them at face value, and then later when they reveal 'truer colors' I feel justified in reneging on the idea. In a manner of speaking, I owe one individual a choice naginata, another a choice battle-axe (zombie prep, both), another a handmade light-sabre/bokken (lightsaber handle with lexan 'blade' for beating with), another $600, another a handmade hidden blade (ala Assassin's Creed),... and that's the 'big items' list.

 

Here's a memory jogger for all the keep fit fanatics!!!!!


This is the last thing I said to rosé before departing on my travels for a while.
The reason I sent it, was to show the end of the experiment.
And the point.
Most just missed it completely....
Some just have a cycle they repeat....
Bt just before the cycle repeats........there is a moment of stillness.....

This..........is.............it.......


Here's the message...

Hello everyone , i hope your all well, couple of things.

First of all

The shout box.
Closing the shout box is a choice.

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The agora becomes more of a forum every hour.

And floundering is obvious.

No one knows what to do.

And your conditioning has come back into full swing.

This is fine, its actually to be expected , its rather like me going back to basics when G left me.

This is powerful and will go completely unchecked.

Even now you are sitting there wondering wtf is going on and why it seems so distant , the goal which was set.

Lets give you a visual example.

Can you all walk in a straight line when sober )) , ?

I will presume you said a mental yes...

Well of course you can huh..
You do it everyday....from the sink to the toilet , down the road , walking the dog etc, easy peasey....

Ok.

You cant.

Period.

Its impossible.


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I was given an example of this in awareness training...


We were picked up from camp in a helicopter ( u can imagine how much i liked that).

All of us got in , (3) 2 greens and one aware, and of course a pilot.


We were taken out onto the glacier , i was not listening very much as i was trying to keep my coffee down after a cigarette (which was my breakfast) and not thinking very much about anything else, then we set down full rotors and my compadre was told to get out and walk back....

It was far , but not so far it was undoable. No overnight , in a straight line three hours maybe..

It was a very bright day and no wind hardly, so he went .


We took off , i was wishing i payed attention...

The pilot and the aware were talking on the headphones so i put some on, and began to pay attention.

The exercise was very simple " YOU HAVE TO BE AWARE OF THE SUBTLE ASPECTS OF YOUR ENVIRONMENT AT ALL TIMES" .

To give you a physical awareness of this ( flick the mental dip switches) you are dropped of in a place with no visual reference and told to do the most straight forward thing,
Walk in a straight line back to camp .

The sun was a behind the white haze of light cloud.but still of some use to navigate.

And so your off, simple eh.

A few days later We were shown the sat trace recon photos of our progress later, i wondered why me and this other guy, we didn't usually go together in anyway, they let us go with people we know when out on something like this so you see the same faces , it involved many things , but simply it was hieght physical nature of your intended proffesion etc...but this guy and i were total different ends of the spectrum.

When the aware and me and the other guy were shown the photos , my question was answered...

He was left handed.

Im ambidextrous ( riding bikes backwards etc)

And he explained we didnt need a right hander to prove the point ( flick our physical switches)

Looking at the photos laid out and edged in geographic reference across the tablelike a big mosaic, you could see he slowly arched of to the right , i meandered around all over like a wiggly line that kinder followed a direction. I made it back an hour or so overtime....he had to be picked up by his chaperone.

you just THINK your clever and in control of yourself, its an illusion that your mind creates for you to keep you going.

From up here in the helicopter , you have turned and are now heading the complete wrong direction.

I do hope this has been of help, it wont be.

But hey you know me sucker for a lost cause, lol.

If you feel im being condescending GOOD i want YOU to feel that and YOU know who YOU are.
R U smiling.

If you feel i am not being condescending , great , hope its of use.

Of course every action has a reaction.

You all know this ...

And sometimes those reactions are deemed to be punishment or churlish etc....

This is not the case with me , it just looks like that sometimes when im talking in person.

This is the reaction from your recent walk across the glacier.

You need a new name for the site , and all my content is to be removed.

Now you will blame me and make up your crutches to hold up your ego, or you will understand and get on with it.

Again.

A choice.

Listen to the last to meetings again, you know which ones, pay special attention to the background and the FACTS.

6 weeks to comply , i think thats reasonable.

Good luck.

Oh and i need you to post something to bashi for me billy .
All the best.




Just to jog the odd memory,hope your well.





That was it,make of it what you will, I'll watch what you make off it, with no further coaching for now.
Good, oh and good afternoon.

 

It was a suggestion about format , that is all.

When you consider what I've done so far for you...
I'd wind your neck right back in rosé...

Or i will remove everything and start again.

Ok , Picasso!

 

Once Billy the monkey man told me to consider EVERYTHING as a paradox that really helped me! (Thanks Bill toaste) I realised even say with my music you can't have the good with out the bad. So it's kind of where you are in between 2 poles, where you are vibrating within them. Two polls to all the paradox's in your life. Including life itself!
Paradoxical philosophy makes a lot more sense then trying to self-solidify meaning through seeking the approval of others. The I & the Me, inside and outside. Everything is a paradox I'm coming to realise...everything!

 

Pressures applied outside by anyone for any reason have an internal effect.

Anyone
For any reason

 

No we have not and I appreciate what you said very much.
In all honesty I am unsure of my motivations. I feel as if I can learn a lot from the people here and that there is some kind of similar in all of us that bring's us here.
But I honestly have no answer of what my motivations are...

 

Sorry I should have said What do you see my motivations are?

 

What do you think my motivation is?

 

You obviously feel bad about something Danielle. It is a confessions thread...post what you think you have done wrong?

 

Is there no way to make this right Rose? I want to.

 

Because it's so beyond reality that it's silly. Like saying your hair is neon green. Sorry Rose, I wasn't implying anything, I was using a saying I had heard to tease you about creative block (which I had interpreted your post to be about). I must have misinterpreted your meaning. You've been gracious and I appreciate you calling me out on this. I will be more careful with typed words in the future. It was flippant and silly. I'll just shut up now.

 

If I may, your vision is very nice, screen size be damned! Undercurrents, I don't feel or understand, I apologize if I overstepped, Just funnin' with you

 

Oh dear! Van Gogh is not a good look for you Rose! Maybe just pilfer ideas instead, it's not plagiarism if you know how to hide your sources